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Highlight of the moment:

I just gave her the shirt off my back.
At her sister's house, we have to sleep in separate locations. She chose the couch, because she has often slept there before, and I feel more comfortable enclosed in her room. While tucking her in, I noticed that she had my black shirt wrapped under her neck, so that she could smell me while asleep.

"Does that smell enough for you?"

She drew it around, inhaling deeply. "No..."

So I peeled the shirt off my back, and put the black one on.

- - - - - - - - - - - - - -

I've always been a touchie-feelie person, but the mental and the emotional link are connected underneath. It's the same for others as well, at least the others that I can trust. Hence, I spent a lot of my time earlier in life studying people. Learning what kinds of people I could trust. Sometimes I'm wrong, and it hurts.

Sometimes I'm right, and things are beautiful.

People can casually fondle each other all they like. Without that mental link, they're just pretending at something. They're play-acting, in the shell of the emotion they lack underneath, or they're reaching out, for a fix to band-aid a greater need, teasing reptilian lust for a prop in their mental floor show. Those people are not for me. Those people waste my time. They can all go bugger off and smoke more reds. I need that mental link.

Luckily, I found someone. Quite by accident, unexpectedly, randomly. Someone I never knew existed in the millions of people out there. It's a Good Thing^TM.

To all you people who talk of 'true love' and 'soul mates', in the conventional definitions: Bite me. There are so many more people in the world than you could ever account for with that attitude. I've had my ups and downs, but past be damned -- I've plucked a brilliant girl out of thin air.

Trust your gut. Feed it with your brain, but trust it.

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the english major in me coming out:

you made "band-aid" into a verb. kudos.

Hmmmm, true. Ah well, it flows OK. :)

You're glowing. It's very good to feel you happy. =)

*blush*

Yay, i love the happy feeling of randomly and blindly bumping in to someone really amazing and feeling like, really really... close. It's weird and beautiful. Human beings can bite my ass for the most part but bonding, really close relationships and true friendships are one of the things that kind of restores my faith in humanity.

Goody for you!

Ouch.

I was worried that you would take offense at that statement, ... but believe me when I say, it wasn't directed at you, it was directed at all those people in my past who used the "soul mate" explanation to try to convince me to go back to my old girlfriend, whom I was heartbroken over and pining for. Thankfully, I stuck with the separation long enough to discover that, if it can happen once, it can happen again. ... Although I have to admit, if I'd gone back to her and endured a certain amount of strife, we could have probably adapted to each other and been fairly happy. It's funny how time changes our memory of events, innit?